The Surfboard Of Life
‘What have I done’, I thought to myself as I sat on the cold, white ceramic tile of the unfamiliar kitchen floor. The unpacked moving boxes with my name labelled in black magic marker were stacked all around me as I held the stale pizza from the day before in my hand, trying to take a bite so I could have the energy to just keep moving. But all I could do was sob.
Was my marriage really over after seven years?
How will I ever get through a divorce, six months pregnant?
Can I support my family on one income alone?
What will be the impact on our children?
These questions ran throughout my mind, over and over again. Without being able to determine a clearly defined solution to my perceived problems above, I witnessed myself continue to focus on the reel of worst case scenarios. I felt lost, insecure and destabilized.
And yet, I had a deep inner knowing that I would be okay.
That day I didn’t have the answers while eating on the floor, but I believed everything would come together in divine time. I trusted the intuitive nudges and authentic truth that had been guiding me to this moment were supporting my well-being and happiness. And I trusted that my smile would return again as I stepped into strength and navigated the waves of those new beginnings.
Indeed it did.
Sometimes our ‘happily ever after’ turns into a ‘once upon an uh-oh’ and we find ourselves maneuvering over waters we never anticipated would be upon our journey. Yet it is within these defining moments as we traverse the unknown that the most beautiful and bodacious adventures can occur. When we let ourselves boldly declare that our self-worth and value is more important than repressing our truth, the expansiveness of fresh air and transformation greets us in delightful new ways as we ride upon our surfboard of life.
May my articles in this beautiful magazine encapsulate inspiration and self-reflective opportunities to support redefining motherhood after divorce, co-parenting, and the power of loving yourself first.
Lyndsay Campbell is a co-parenting mother of two boys, a Life Transformation Coach and
Reiki Master.
